|TODAY IN THE POST
||[Jul. 20th, 2009|08:14 pm]
school has been a mishmash of lessons interspersed by worry. history has been a blast lately: mr miles regales us stories and jokes and general melodrama. i think the fact that global economy is just so iffy plays a part. but i really like the topic: the part of me that once wanted to study economic history never really disappeared entirely. between lessons we flock to the staffroom in hoards, eager students grasping for dreams that quite easily slip through our fingers. conversations are all about uncertainties and futures. we can't help it i guess, i feel like for the first time, we have to mould our own futures and more often than not, we don't quite know what shape we want.
i've been vacillating with subject combinations. i think within two years i've changed my mind more times than i can count. studying pure history seemed to be a bit of a gamble: wasn't too sure whether i wanted to study it pure or in combination with another subject (politics? economics?), never thought i was particularly good enough to do it etc etc (plus the age-old what do you do with a history degree question) but i believe in signs and getting back my blocks ii history exam paper today was an affirmation of a tentative decision i had already partially made. although it has to be said that at any other university i wouldn't consider pure history. the thing about me is that i am so bloody uncertain about what i want.
i miss my brother. i was typing out an email to him today and i realise how much i wish he was still in his room (the room i am in now partially studying i say partially self-evidently because i am obviously not doing much studying haha) and i could just pop in to bug/nag/question because if anything, he reassures me. he has more confidence in me than i have in myself and its a very pleasant feeling. come back don't party so much at rock concerts in argentina :(
my toilet is under construction/renovation. apparently we're leaking into the second floor. i came back early today and regretted it it sounds like wwthree in the afternoon: drills and hammers galore. couldn't get any work done the sound was incessant and annoying
i had a really good weekend. other than CATS being an utter waste of my time, i met up with friends: p, becca, cher, and it was a breather. meeting up with jc when she gets back from i-don't-know-where-somewhere-i'd-rather-be-whereever-it-is on sat for lunch and i'm looking forward to that too. and my hot date with huishan. i guess thats what the rest of the year is going to be like. the sporadic (in my case not really that sporadic i'm such a bum) moments of fun between what is gonna be some really painful grind and toil
and oh, oh, today in post, delivered by a friendly man in yellow who gave my sister a great shock (she opened the door to go down to let the guy through the gate only to find him already outside the door doesn't sound funny but her shriek was haha) came the new macbook pro which my dad bought for us and my ipod touch with my name (adele natalya tee) at the back <3<3<3
in the mean time i shall close this and do cold war revision o-m-gee i think there'll never be a time that i'm ahead. seems like i'm on the perpetual catch-up for anything academic related zzz